The knuckles of my left hand always ache when the barometric pressure drops, a dull, thrumming reminder of a childhood spent in a state of siege. I sat in my office at St. Jude’s Memorial, the city lights shimmering through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and massaged the joint of my ring finger.
To the world, I am Dr. Maya Sterling, the Chief of Thoracic Surgery. I am the woman with the “miracle hands.” Patients travel across continents to have my left hand—steady as a mountain, precise as a laser—navigate the delicate topography of their hearts.
But to Silas and Elena Vance, I was never a doctor. I was a defect.
The memory hit me, unbidden and sharp: I was six years old, sitting at the mahogany dining table. I had reached for my glass of milk with my left hand.
Whack.
The heavy wooden ruler struck my knuckles with the precision of a guillotine.
“Right is right, Maya,” my mother’s voice had hissed. She was elegant, even then, her pearls shimmering in the candlelight. “Left is the sinister hand. It is the hand of the clumsy, the hand of the broken. We will not have a broken daughter.”
They had spent years trying to “fix” me. They tied my left arm to the back of my chair until the shoulder joint screamed. They forced me to write with my right hand until my script was a jagged, illegible mess of frustration. When I resisted, when my nature proved more stubborn than their cruelty, they decided I wasn’t worth the effort of repair.
On my tenth birthday, they didn’t give me a cake. They gave me a suitcase.
“We’ve realized we cannot foster a spirit so fundamentally flawed,” Silas had said, standing on the steps of the Sisters of Mercy Orphanage. He didn’t look at me. He looked at his gold watch. “Perhaps the church can pray the ‘left’ out of you. We are starting over. We deserve a masterpiece.”
