I am sixty five years old now, and when I look back at my life, most of it is inseparable from the man I once called my husband. We were married for thirty seven years, years filled with routines, arguments, shared dreams, and quiet sacrifices that never made it into photographs. I believed, with the stubborn certainty of someone who had built a life brick by brick, that whatever happened in the world, we would face it together.
That belief ended on a gray morning in a family courthouse in Cleveland, Ohio.
The divorce itself was brief, almost mechanical, as if the law had grown tired of witnessing grief and wanted to finish quickly. When the papers were signed, my former husband, Patrick Miller, reached into his jacket pocket and handed me a plain bank card. His face was calm, almost distant, the same expression he used when discussing household bills.
“This should cover you for a little while,” he said evenly. “There are three hundred dollars on it.”
His words landed with more force than any insult could have. Thirty seven years reduced to a number that could barely pay rent for a few months. I stood there frozen as he turned and walked away, never once looking back. The echo of his footsteps followed me long after the courtroom emptied.
I kept the card, not because I wanted the money, but because throwing it away felt like admitting that I truly had been discarded.
After the divorce, my life narrowed into survival. I rented a single damp room behind an old grocery store on the edge of the city, a place where the walls smelled of mold and the radiator clanged through the night.