I lay perfectly still on the kitchen tile, pretending I was unconscious.
The floor was cold enough to seep into my bones. A plate had shattered beside me, salmon scattered across the grout. My cheek pressed against the tile, and every instinct screamed at me to move, to gasp, to get up.
I didn’t.
Then I heard Ethan’s voice.
Calm. Certain. Almost bored.
“Yeah, she’s down. The dose worked exactly like we planned.”
In that one sentence, three years of marriage collapsed into rubble.
For months, I’d thought I was losing my mind. The dizziness. The fog. The strange lapses in memory that made me doubt myself in meetings. I’d blamed stress. Burnout. Grief. Anything but him.
But tonight, something had shifted.
When he served dinner, I did something small and desperate. I pretended to eat, sliding most of the food into a folded napkin in my lap. I waited for the familiar heaviness to wash over me.
It didn’t.
My mind stayed sharp.So when I heard him coming back into the kitchen, I moved fast. I dumped the hidden food back onto the plate and threw myself onto the floor, sending the dish crashing loud enough to sell the fall.
Now I had to commit.
He rushed in, panic painted across his face.
“Rachel?” His voice was soft, tender. Almost believable.
He knelt, touched my wrist, brushed my hair aside.
Then he stood and walked away.
Moments later, I heard his phone dialing.
His tone changed. Less husband. More business.Sometimes it’s about waking up, even when you’re pretending to sleep, and choosing not to disappear.