The same small motion, repeated day after day, so automatic I barely noticed myself doing it—like brushing crumbs off a table, certain it carried no weight, changed nothing. I never imagined that the man seated quietly outside the library, shoulders slightly bent, eyes calmly observing the flow of the city, would be the only person capable of recognizing the danger tightening around me, while I walked forward unaware, convinced my life was still firmly in my own hands.

My husband, Ernesto Cruz, passed away nineteen months ago. His death didn’t bring the peace people promise when suffering ends. Instead, it left behind a silence so dense it felt physical. It settled between the furniture, clung to the walls, crept beneath the table and into the wardrobe, constantly reminding me that there would be no sandals drying near the stove, no early-morning radio murmuring the news. I was sixty-five, my hip replacement clicking with every step like a metronome counting what I could no longer do, suddenly alone in a life I had never planned to face by myself.

As I slowly sorted through Ernesto’s belongings—because there was no urgency anymore, no clear future pressing me forward—I uncovered what he had hidden in the name of protecting me. Unpaid hospital bills. Legal notices. Letters from collection agencies stacked behind old papers and meaningless keepsakes. His illness had drained our savings quietly, methodically, without my knowing. The insurance policy barely covered the burial. Nothing else. No cushion. No safety net. I sold the house where we raised our children, where birthdays were celebrated and flowers planted, where growing old together once felt natural. I paid off debts piece by piece and used what little remained to buy a small, colorless apartment on the far eastern edge of Mexico City, far from everything I once called familiar.