Freedom did not arrive wrapped in relief or celebration, and it certainly did not feel like the triumphant ending I had imagined during countless sleepless nights. It arrived smelling like fuel exhaust, burnt coffee, and cold metal, drifting through the half-lit bus station just before sunrise. It tasted like a world that had moved on without me, indifferent to the three years I had lost behind concrete walls and iron bars. I stepped through the gates carrying a transparent plastic bag that held everything I owned: two flannel shirts worn thin at the elbows, a battered copy of The Count of Monte Cristo with pages threatening to fall out, and the heavy silence that settles into you after years of being told that your voice no longer matters.
The guards barely glanced at me as I walked away, and no one was waiting. No banner, no hugs, no familiar faces. Yet my thoughts were not on prison, not on the injustice, not even on the future that now lay uncertain before me. They were on my father. Every night inside, I had rebuilt him in my imagination, always in the same place, sitting in his old leather chair by the bay window, porch light casting a warm glow across his weathered face. In my mind, he was always waiting, always alive, holding onto the version of me that existed before the arrest, before the headlines, before the world decided that Eli Vance was guilty.
I ignored the diner across the street, despite the hollow ache in my stomach, and I didn’t call anyone. I didn’t even look at the reentry address folded in my pocket. I went straight home, or at least to what I believed was still home.