They say weddings are supposed to pull families together, but standing there beneath strings of warm lights and eucalyptus garlands, watching my daughter marry my ex-husband, I felt like I had stepped into a life I didn’t recognize.
The venue was breathtaking, the jazz soft and romantic, guests glowing with champagne and approval, but inside me something stayed tightly wound and cold. It was surreal — a scene beautiful enough to be on the cover of a magazine, but hollowed out by the strangest ache I had ever carried. This strange ending belonged to a story that started decades earlier, when I married my first husband because it was expected.
Mark and I weren’t in love so much as aligned with what everyone wanted from us. Our families vacationed together, sat on the same boards, measured young adulthood by how well we fit the mold. We did. At least, on paper. We had Rowan, then Caleb. We smiled through holidays, fundraisers, and photo spreads, pretending we were whole. But you cannot build a life on silence, and eventually our inability to name what we lacked became the undoing of everything. The divorce was as quiet as the marriage — polite signatures, equal division of assets, and a hollow relief that clung to us like fog. Then came Arthur, years later, a man who seemed to breathe warmth into the spaces I had kept sealed.
When Rowan, always ambitious and burning with intensity, told me she had fallen in love, I didn’t expect the name that followed. My heart didn’t understand it at first — my thoughts simply rejected the idea.