When my doctor told me—gently, the way physicians do when they’re trying not to alarm you—that stress was beginning to carve its signature into my body, I finally listened in a way I hadn’t before. It wasn’t just the fatigue or the headaches or the restless nights where my heart seemed to race for no reason.
It was the quiet awareness that I had spent too long being strong for everyone, too long swallowing discomfort so others could stay comfortable, and my body had decided it was done cooperating with that arrangement. He recommended I leave the city, breathe sea air, sleep without interruption, and go somewhere that felt safe and familiar. There was only one place that fit that description: my beach house on the Spanish coast, the one my late husband and I had built decades earlier when life still felt wide open and hopeful. That house was not just a property on paper.
It was memory made physical: white sand just beyond the terrace, palm trees that rustled like whispered prayers, the steady sound of waves that always seemed to untangle knots in the chest. It was where we’d laughed barefoot in the kitchen, where we’d watched sunsets with wine in hand, where grief had later softened into something survivable because the ocean kept moving no matter what. I packed lightly—comfortable clothes, a novel I’d been meaning to finish, my medications, and the kind of quiet optimism you carry when you believe you’re about to rest. The drive was long but soothing, the landscape gradually trading concrete for sky.