I know the exact time because I’d been awake for hours, watching the red digital numbers on my nightstand tick forward with that peculiar, mocking insistence that only insomnia brings. At sixty-two, sleep had become something of a luxury, a fickle friend that visited less and less since Thomas passed. I’d grown accustomed to the quiet hours when the farmhouse settled into itself, the timber frame creaking and sighing like an old woman easing into her favorite chair.
Usually, the sounds of the night were familiar: the wind rattling the loose pane in the hallway, the settling of the furnace, the distant hoot of a barn owl.
But this sound was different. Urgent. Panic-stricken. Three sharp, erratic raps against the front door’s weathered oak.
My heart lurched in my chest, a physical blow before my mind could even catch up. Living out here on sixty acres of woodland, miles from the nearest neighbor, nobody visits at 3:00 in the morning with good news. At this hour, it is only tragedy or malice that comes knocking.
I pulled on my robe, the thick blue fleece my son Peter had given me two ago—a gift chosen by his wife, I was sure, given the receipt was still in the pocket—and made my way down the stairs. My knees protested the cold draft, but I moved quickly, my hand instinctively reaching for the heavy flashlight I kept on the entryway table.Through the frosted glass panel beside the door, I could make out a silhouette. It was small, hunched, and shivering violently.
I unlocked the deadbolt and swung the door open. A gust of December wind, laced with sleet, nearly knocked me backward. It brought with it the smell of wet pine, ozone, and palpable fear.
“Grandma…”And for the first time in sixty-two years, looking at the snow falling on my land, I realized that the creaking of the old house wasn’t a complaint. It was a song of strength. It was the sound of holding on.