As a widow was supposed to be simple: go to work at the library, go home to the quiet, and survive the day one hour at a time. Three months after cancer took my husband, Evan, our house still looked like he might walk in any minute—his jacket on the chair, his shoes by the door, his toothbrush beside mine like an unfinished sentence. I took the assistant librarian job because it was calm, because books don’t ask questions, because I could keep my grief tucked behind routine. And outside the library gate, almost every morning, an older man sat on the same bench with a folded newspaper and a cup, watching the street like it was a story he’d already read.
At first I only noticed him in passing, then I started leaving a dollar or two, then a sandwich when the cold turned sharp. He always answered with the same gentle line—“Take care of yourself, dear”—no pity, no speeches, just something steady that felt oddly comforting when everything else in my life had come unmoored. I brought him a blanket and a thermos of tea, trying to be practical, trying to be kind, and that’s when he looked up with fear in his eyes and said my name. I hadn’t told him. Then he leaned forward like the words were heavy. “Don’t go home today,” he said. “Stay with your sister. Anywhere else.” He wouldn’t explain, only promised he would tomorrow, and he walked away with a strength that didn’t match the picture I’d built of him.