She grew up inside a storm she never asked for — a childhood shaped by instability, relentless pressure, and a spotlight far too bright for someone so young. Long before she became one of Hollywood’s most luminous stars, she was a little girl pushed past her limits, controlled, criticized, overworked, and given pills just to keep performing.Behind the sequins, the studio lights, and the enchanting roles was a child fighting exhaustion, insecurity, and a system that valued profit more than protection. Understanding her early years reveals not just the origins of her extraordinary talent, but the machinery of old Hollywood that carved her into an icon while wounding her in ways that lasted a lifetime.
Born in Minnesota, she stepped onto a stage before she was even three. Her home life, however, was filled with turmoil. Her mother had reportedly tried to end the pregnancy, and rumors about her father’s secret relationships with teenage boys and young men followed the family from town to town. In 1926, they moved quietly to Lancaster, California, hoping to escape the whispers.Her parents — both vaudeville performers — lived in a marriage marked by constant breakups and reconciliations. She remembered the fear of their separations vividly. Even as a young child, she was taken into nightclubs to perform for adult audiences, a setting wildly inappropriate for someone so small.
Her mother, described by the star herself as a jealous and domineering stage mother, tightly controlled every aspect of her early career. Biographers later revealed that she was given pills to stay awake and others to fall asleep — a pattern that would haunt her for decades. In 1963, she said, “The only time I felt wanted when I was a kid was when I was on stage, performing.”